I Razzle. I Dazzle.

I woke up this morning and decided I am healed. I decided that I wasn’t going to look back at anything anymore. I am not going to should on myself ever again! It’s time. I am happily looking for new adventures, new collaborators, new friends and new Werk to keep me fresh, alive and BUSY!!! This is what creating a world worth living in looks like!!!! Today IS a new day! 

Whatcha got people? 

Tell me what you are building, making, doing, creating?!?!? I thrive on your ideas and adventures!  

 

The Gift of Thumbs

I just want to say… This.
 S K A T E I S T A N!!!
This is the kind of thing we SHOULD be doing in the world. Creating solutions outside of the box!!!

Our human gifts are many; thumbs, standing up on two feet, accessorizing, harmonizing, tears, and even our ability to contemplate. ALL GIFTS!!!

We waste these gifts with all the, “grabbing the most, stealing others liberty, judging hearts and consuming, well, everything in sight!”

We need to CREATE! We need to be creative, supportive and contemplative. We need to do all of this with love and intention. We need to glean the positive and uplifting parts of all of our morals, our ethics and our vast array of religions and simply BE BETTER. That’s all. It is NOT a contest. I repeat: NOT. CONTEST.

We don’t need to be great “again” we need to always be working to get better. We will never reach great because that would be the end, do we want an end?? No. Our only purpose is practice. Our only goal is innovation. Our only salvation is love. 

These kids get it because they’ve seen things. Instead of waiting until you’ve seen things- just take a lesson from them and start working together to MAKE. 

Practice, innovate, love. 

We don’t really want to go back. Nostalgia is a weakness. We want to go forward, differently. We want to build a world full of empowered, healthy, kind humans who skate, rock, start, think, lift, move, reach, dance, laugh, sustain, clean, save and care. 

It’s easier than we think and it starts with you.

What would organization would YOU create to improve your local community? 

Let’s spend more time thinking about helping and less time thinking about what we’re owed! 

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Moon Boo Hoo

I gots too many feels right now. It’s like I’m stuffed full of butterflies and bumblebees. I laugh cry and cry laugh. My heart beats fast and I want to sleep all day. I want to do ten million things but I can only do one thing and I can’t decide which one so all I can do is sit her and hummmmm to myself. Either that or it’s all blasting Beasties and talking to myself. I blame the moon. Oh, and the smell of Daphne.
I’d go make art but it just turns out squishy and sharp.

Sometimes; quiet.

Jumpy castles in the sky

At some point you just gotta do that painful, heart wrenching thing. You gotta spill the truth, cut the ties, admit defeat, throw in the towel and move on.

There is a big difference between giving up and letting go. It’s easier with a plan, a script, practice and a strong crew of peeps. I am almost there- almost ready to make the final leap. Just a little more preparation and I’ll be ready to go. New beginnings; doing things differently from now on.

I made a checklist. This is a rotation list, a mantra, a reminder and my goals.

1. Write a letter to all the people you’re gonna quit giving shit to (emotionally, physically and professionally!)-check

2. Create a retreat where you can create the life you want- foundations in place.

3. Trust the universe and make art- getting closer!

4. Surround yourself with people who only have your best interests in their hearts- CHECK!

5. Stop doing the same fucking shit over and over… Almost there.

6. Send the letters out and quit doing that shit- yep, this will happen 12/13/14. That’s the date I’ve chosen.

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Reread

I tried to reread these but they made me too angry. I will stop myself from deleting them, but I will also apologize that they read like a weepy journal; oh, woo has me. Barf!

I just want to make art, break shit, build shit and add glitter. I just want to create programs and help people step into the magical light that is art making… But I also want to get paid and that, THAT, is not possible in this world.

You gotta give it away now.

Ten Terrible Days and Ten Terrible Nights.

I started to transcribe all the notes, and thoughts, and voice recordings, and ideas I’ve had the last ten days and I realized how much I had veered off course from the original intent of this blog in the first place: to write about myself and my work.

Instead it got tied up in my living situation, moving, disappointment, and family shit.

I don’t want to think about that, let alone write about it, at least NOT here.

Deep Blue 42 is about my journey to let go of things, to find more positive solutions and to think more productive thoughts. I am a negative person and I know where it comes from and how it got here. I don’t need to spend my work time talking about my mommy and her daily weed habit (which by the way makes her MORE negative…weird right?) or my dad and his absence (which by the way does not make the heart grow fonder)!

I am here to tell you about my work and how amazing working is and how much I enjoy the process of working. It’s suppose to be about ART.

Ok, I think I just needed that reminder, for myself if nothing else.

Funny, I sit here now trying to think of something to say about my art but instead I have to go think about packing, moving, unpack and MORE release of my objects.

Hopefully I can switch gears soon.

Material Girl

I love things. Antiques, broken junk, paper, photos, fabric, wood and plastic. If it’s shaped like this or curved like that I want to make it into something beautiful.

The problem with things is storing them. I am slowly learning that these things are only part of my process. I set up the studio, I organized the stuff, I moved, recycled, gave away and collected. I’ve done this more than Ive made art. That changed today!

I made a schedule for my studio and I will make art like it’s my JOB! Because it is my job! I’ll have a work schedule and a quota. I will make 3 pieces of art a day for the month of March. Any creative endeavor will do.

In April I will make five sellable pieces.

I need to build my collection. I need to use my materials.

So excited to see how it goes.

Difference

There is a big difference between giving up and letting go.

I have to remind myself of this while I am making art. I think I always have to have sixteen irons in the fire or I am not happy. As long as those things feel creative and I am not met with jealous and greedy people. This is why I must focus on simply building a body of work for myself for a while.

How many pieces can I make per day, per week? How many can I work on at the same time- in the same hour? Whew!! I’m so excited to find out.

Productivity fills the space. The space is rarely empty.

Things I Dig

Writing everyday really gives you the chance to think things through, which also gives you the chance to change your mind about a thousand times, which almost seems like flip-floping waffles but it’s really just process. Good process.

I do want to be an artist. I am an artist. I am an artist every day even when I am not making art. I am thinking creatively, communicating creatively, eating creatively. I breathe creativity.

I also want to be an event planner, a  sales person, a business woman, and an athlete. No more boxes for me.

The freedom fills the empty space.